Chapter 2. Joy-Divine - What is the “Higher-Self”?

Here begins the channelled section of this work.  I will start by speaking to my own higher self.  I will type my questions and the answers that come back to me.  I will, throughout this work, take for myself the stance of not knowing many things that I actually do know (or think I know) so that the answers are more complete.  And so, here we go:

Zingdad: I wish to speak now to my own Higher-Self.  To the being that has previously identified itself to me as Joy-Divine.

Joy-Divine: Hello.  I am here with you as always. 

Z: Hello. I will want to channel you on a number of issues and share those channellings on the internet.  I feel it is a good idea to first introduce you to the readers so that they might have a context from which to understand your words.

J-D: Yes, this is good.  I am happy to do an introduction but I would suggest that we can hit more than one bird with this same stone, so to speak.  We can have a series of chats that introduce me and at the same time introduce a number of spiritual concepts.

Z: Okay, excellent!  What sorts of spiritual concepts?

J-D: Well, for example: in your invitation to me to speak, you called me your “Higher-Self”.  But do we all have agreement on what a “Higher-Self” IS?  So, if I want to introduce myself to your readers I might say “I am Zingdad’s Higher-Self” but of course I must then first explain the concept such that we are all on the same page.  And, as I begin to explain this concept we are going to run into other concepts which will also need to be explained.  And very soon, in me simply trying to introduce myself, I will have opened a whole gamut of topics that will need to be addressed.

Z: Sounds exciting!

J-D: …and potentially confusing if we don’t handle this carefully.  You will still come to be quite surprised at how much beauty, truth and wisdom will come from this simple beginning.  But for now what I am going to ask you to do is to make this a multi-part series of conversations.  I will open today with a discussion with you which you may title “What is a Higher-Self?”.  And then, in this discussion we will come up with new topics for conversation which we shall address in follow-up sessions with either me and some of the other members of our spirit family.  Okay?

Z: Yes, of course!  If I may ask… what are some of the possible spiritual concepts that might come out of this conversation?

J-D: Oh there will be a great many.  This is a conversation which might never end.  Asking someone “who are you?” is an invitation for a life-long association if the two of you are serious in your endeavour to explore the answer to that question.  But I will touch on the next few points that will come out of this discussion.  They will be “what is One-ness?”, “what is ascension?”, “why am I called Joy-Divine” and “what is truth?”.

Z: And we’ll want to answer those as a result of the question “What is a Higher-Self”?

J-D: Correct. And ultimately these conversations will flower into the basis for the recreation of your reality and an invitation to your readers to be the co-creators of a grand vision.

Z: Well then!  Best I start the ball rolling and ask the question…  ta da da dum… What, pray tell, IS a Higher-Self?

J-D: I am SO glad you asked (he smiles). 

Firstly let me say that, while the most commonly used term is “Higher-Self”, I actually prefer “Inner-Self” or in a certain context, “God-Self”.  How this all works can be very, very simple to explain or terribly complex.  The simplest explanation that I can offer is this:

“There is only one being experiencing the illusion of being many.”

I like that so much that I am going to repeat it in a slightly different way:

“The One is engaged in an experience of Itself as being many."

This statement is true on many levels.  If you really get that concept, then you get the essential thesis of what I would present as the spiritual cosmology of All That Is.  This understanding serves you irrespective of the size of the spiritual concept you are trying to understand.  Let’s start big… from the top and work down:

We are all ONE.  But the ONE – which you may call God, or Source or Creator whatever term you like – has created for itself some very powerful thoughts about itself such that there are Many.  To illustrate this I shall use the example of an author that is writing a story.  The author creates the characters of the story in his mind.  As the characters gain greater and greater validity in the authors mind they begin to take on distinct personalities.  Often the author will find that it seems like the characters have a mind of their own!  They feel, to the author, as if they are autonomous beings and he is just chronicling their behaviour.  Can you see how this could be for that author?  That he can create many personae in his mind?   And give them each their own nature and personality?  And in the telling of their stories the characters seem to be quite oblivious to the fact that they only exist in the author’s mind?  That the world they live in, though infinite, is also only in the story-teller’s mind?

Z: Oh wow, yes.  The author analogy is awesome.

J-D: Now I tell you it is not only authors that do this… that create characters in their minds.  In point of fact all sentient beings do this to one degree or another.  Everyone creates fictitious conversations and interactions in their own minds.  Everyone has day-dreams and fantasies and imaginary discussions.  And everyone dreams.  These and similar processes are all story-telling with character creation.  
Can you see how each of you then, already have the beginnings of the experience of creating “another” inside your own minds?

Z: Yes, I can see that.

J-D: Now imagine you have an infinity of time to perfect the art of powerfully imagining these characters.  Imagine you have infinite creative resources.  That you are greater than the greatest creative genius that has ever walked the planet.  Now possibly you might have a the first glimmering of what this might be like; how the ONE can create within Its mind, so to speak, various characters and personalities.

Z: So that is how we here on earth come into being?

J-D: No, not quite.  I am endeavouring to give you a simplified understanding of what might otherwise be an impossibly complex subject.  And I am going to need to keep oversimplify things a lot for the sake of being able to express these ideas at all.  If you want to understand how beings on earth come to be here then you should rather imagine a hierarchy of creator-beings.  Imagine that the beings that appear in the mind of the ONE should create in their minds more beings.  And they in turn do the same thing.  And this happens over and over and over again.  Then, at some point, you would get to the soul-fragments that incarnate on planet earth.  

You have heard that this world is deep in the densities, or as others express it, of a low dimension.  Well this is essentially the notion:  Each density lower requires an additional level of creation.  You would have a “higher self” on every one of the levels or densities or dimensions above you, right the way “up” to the ONE.  Which is why you call such beings “higher self”.  But I tell you it is not “up” it is “inside”.  A better understanding is that these levels are within you.  You go inside your heart to find your “inner self”.  And the further inwards you travel the greater the version of your Inner-Self you will find.

Z: Right the way to God?

J-D: Yes.  Have you not heard it said that God is inside each and every person’s heart?  Or that the kingdom of heaven is in your heart?

Z: Oh.  Okay.  That’s cool, thank you.  So to sum up:  there is The One, which is God.  And God has created us all within It’s mind.  But indirectly.  There is a structure and we are the creations of the creations of the creations…

J-D: …and so on, yes.

Z: Ah.

J-D: But do not suffer the impression that you are not therefore very powerful!  All parts of the One are imbued with the essential nature of the One.  It is said that you are made in God’s image.  Well, that doesn’t mean that God has a body like yours.  It means YOU are made in God’s image.  The you that is still you when you are no longer in a human body.  It means all spirit is God-like.  All spirit is creative and self-creative.

Two concepts that you personally have been encouraged by me to understand are fractals and holograms.  For a very good reason.  I can strongly encourage everyone to at least read a little about these two phenomena.  They provide a wonderful way to understand creation.  A hologram is an object which provides a three-dimensional picture.  If you break that hologram into numerous smaller pieces, then each of those pieces will once again contain the whole three dimensional image.  And you are like this.  Every being contains the whole.  

And the thing with fractals is to understand that you can find a point that interests you and from there you can zoom deeper and deeper into the fractal.  You will never get to the end of it.  It is endlessly recursive in any direction you wish to travel.  And you are like this too.  If you look within yourself you can go on looking forever and ever.  There is always more to discover in any direction you wish to search.

So I tell you this:  It seems to you as if the universe lies outside of you.  It does not.  In fact it lies INSIDE you.  Each of you contains the whole and one can “zoom into” each of you infinitely.  All parts are connected to all other parts.

Z: You’re kidding, right, about the part about the whole universe being INSIDE me?

J-D: No I am being completely serious.  It is a point I shall like to discuss with you in much greater detail soon.  But we must shelve that conversation for a moment so that we can finish THIS conversation.

Z: Ah.  Got it.  So we were talking about you being my Inner-Self and that there are levels of Inner-Self-ness.

J-D: Yes.  Essentially all I am trying to say is that, depending on how you look at it, there might be only one ultimate Inner-Self or an infinite number of levels of Inner-Selves.

Z: Wow.  Er… the one ultimate Inner-Self would be…?

J-D: The Source of all that is, of course.  God.  We are all One, as I have mentioned.  So ultimately we are all joined by the fact that our ultimate greatest version of Self is God.

Z: That’s a big thought.  I struggle with it a bit.

J-D: That’s fine.  If you already knew this to be true beyond a shadow of a doubt then you would probably not have a need to be incarnated anymore.  So it is natural that this should be a difficult one for you and anyone else reading this.  But don’t stress about it.  You can, if you choose, simplify matters and understand that within the creation of The One are many great spirit beings.  You can call them Demi-Gods or Arch-Angels if you like.  They are your God-Self.  They are both aware of themselves as unique and separate individuals AND at the same time, are absolutely aware of their Oneness .  They have created (together or separately) lower levels of self.  Each succeeding level is more separate and less ONE.

Z: But how can someone be both One AND separate?

J-D: I shall address this in one of the conversations about the Oneness.  I shall call it “the rainbow metaphor”.

Z: Sounds colourful, I look forward to that.  Okay then, back to this discussion.  So there is a continuum from a feeling of oneness at the top right down to a feeling of separateness at the bottom?

J-D: Yes, exactly.  And at each and every level the being is creating other characters and personae in its mind.  All are always in a process of the co-creation of Self.  As you get down to this reality you currently inhabit you get to a feeling of profound separateness such that you can actually totally forget that you are One and that you are a creator being.  In fact, that is what your whole plane of reality was created for: to experience separateness.  Which is also called individuality.  “Not-Oneness” is a wonderful way for you to experience a great degree of free will.

Z: Why is that?

J-D: Briefly, it is because when you know yourself as an individual… as truly separate from All That Is and from your own spiritual hierarchy, then you can decide things about yourself without the baggage of knowing what has gone before.  You are in a state of not-self.  And only from that state can you truly discover who you really are anew.  This can be quite a complex thing to understand.  Let’s give it proper attention on another day, shall we?  We’ll talk about this again under the title of “What is Ascension?”

Z: Okay.  So then to come back to this discussion, we were saying there is the One-ness at the top, which is God.  And then God creates the many and in the minds of the many are many more and so on and so on all the way down to us down here on earth who are a great many and who are not One.  We’re separate and individual.  And we did this to ourselves on purpose so that we could discover something about ourselves and re-create ourselves.  Right?

J-D: Good.  Yes, that’s the first half of the story.  You now have a rough sketch of how the structure works from the top down.  But until you see it the other way round, from the bottom up, you won’t really get it.  So let’s tell that other half of the story.  

The thing to understand is that each of you on Planet Earth are playing out the roles you have chosen for yourselves.  You play massive long-running games that span many lifetimes so that you can experience yourself as an individual.  As separate from each other.  As “not-One”.  And that is what that life there is like.  But every game must come to an end at some point.  Eventually you will say to yourself, “I have pretty much seen everything I want to see in this game,” and you will want to take your learnings and go play some other game.  Maybe you’ll want to play a game with less constrictive rules next time for example.  Anyway, the point at which you decide you have seen what you want to see here is the point at which you usually choose to begin your ascension process.  Even though I don’t really like the term “ascension” I will use it as it is by now in very common usage.

Z: What a minute.  Sorry to interrupt.  But why don’t you like that term?

J-D: Ascension?  For the same reason I don’t like “Higher-Self”.  The word “ascension” implies an upwards movement and you don’t go “up”.  You don’t actually go anywhere at all.  You heal, you become congruent, you become at one with yourself and then you begin to remember who you really are.  When you have done this you are free to take your consciousness “inwards” to other densities or sideways to other time-lines or wherever else you like.  You see, essentially what you are doing in the ascension process is pulling yourself inward towards yourself.  You need to do this if you are going to remove yourself from this system of reality so that you can go and play in other realities.

Z: Okay, thanks.  But we are going to talk about this as a separate subject called “what is ascension?”, aren’t we?

J-D: Quite right.  We’ll go into some detail then but for now I just wanted to touch on the subject so that I could complete the idea that I am expressing here.

Z: Which is?

J-D: Which is that right now there are quite a good number of people on Planet Earth who are engaged with their ascension paths.  They are finishing off with the game and its rules at this level of reality and they are preparing to become a greater version of themselves.  You are doing this yourself and probably everyone reading this is doing this too.  People not on their ascension path will resonate very poorly with what is written here.  They will feel it is all nonsense.  So I can state with some confidence that you and your readers are all busy “ascending”.

Z: And what then?  What happens when we have ascended?

J-D: It is not a single-step process, of course.  As you “ascend”, so you awaken to greater and greater realizations of self.  You begin to see through the illusions of this world that keep people trapped in the game.  You begin to find true love and compassion for yourself and for all others.  You begin to release the fear and pain that you have created inside yourself across your many lifetimes.  You cease thinking of yourself as a victim to your experiences and then understand with greater and greater clarity that you are the creator of you own experiences.  And as this becomes true for you so your experiences will bear your beliefs out.  In short, you become a creator being and cease being a lonely, lost victim.

Z: Ah.  But what about the whole Oneness thing?

J-D: That is an excellent point.  You see, as long as your view of yourself resides primarily in your ego… that is the aspect of self that sees itself as “separate” and as that which must do all the doing… then you are not co-creating with the rest of All That Is.  You are not in alignment with the greatest forces in all creation.  When you begin to create from your heart and in Love then you move towards Oneness.  Then All That Is co-creates with you.  It is a profound difference.  You, on your own as opposed to you, in harmony with all of creation.  In the latter state you will find your life shot through with miracles and magic.  In the former state you get the kind of reality espoused by Murphy’s law.  You get to be a person on your own slogging it out against all the odds and then indeed, anything that can go wrong usually will.  So the choice is yours.  You can remain attached to being separate and alone and keep playing the games of density or you can release this, you can decide to see all others as another aspect of self.  You can choose Oneness and love and then you will begin to “ascend”.

Z: What is the ascension process like?

J-D: In short it is a process in which you become more and more the creator of your own reality.  What that means is that each person will create their own path and their own experiences of it.  So for each it will be quite different and it is therefore not useful to try to constrain this idea too much with words.  There is much, much more to be said on this topic and we will find many opportunities to look at it from many other perspectives.  All I really wanted to get to is the idea that you and others like you are now experiencing this: you are now ascending.  It is not incorrect to say that you are becoming your own Higher-Self.

Z: Oh wow.  I am sort of moving up a level.

J-D: Yes.  There aren’t really strictly defined “levels” like floors in a tall building but it is less complex if you think of it like that for now.  Now, as you contemplate this can you see that it is so that God created your God-Self who, essentially, created your Inner-Self who created you and your other incarnations.  But by living the life you are living, by making the choices you are making and holding the beliefs you are holding, you are re-creating yourself as you go.  And when you re-create yourself you re-create a part of your Inner-Self.  And that is what you do.  You and your Inner-Self are engaged in a process of self creation.  So it could be said that you are your Inner-Self engaged in the experience of your life.   So… if you follow all this… can you see that your Inner-Self creates you and then you create your Inner-Self?  That we are one being in a constant process of self-creation?

Z: Okay, WOW!  That is awesome!  But uhh… why does it mostly not feel like this.  I mean, I think of you as being quite powerful and amazing and stuff and I am often quite confused or in pain or filled with feelings of being lonely and lost.

J-D: Good question.  It comes down to the fact that you didn’t come to live on earth only to immediately ascend.  You came here to BE here.  To experience yourself as being a separate individual.  So in that state you DO often feel these lonely, lost and disempowered sensations.  It is, unfortunately, a part of the turf it seems.  It is only when you are essentially done with the game that you begin to remember that you are actually a powerful creator being.  Then, as you begin to remember this, so you begin to release some of the separateness and then you truly begin to create yourself AS your Inner-Self.

Z: So at every level we are one being creating our self through the experience of many.

J-D: Yes!  As above, so below.  And as below, so above.  So you co-create yourself.  In so doing you co-create your Inner-Self.  Who is, essentially, engage in the process of co-creation of your God-Self.  And the God-Selves are all essentially in the process of the co-creation of God.  You see?  Extend this far enough and you understand that we are all One.  There ultimately is just One of us creating the many so as to experience Itself in myriad new ways and re-create Itself.  The many create many more and so on and so without end for on for all infinity.  And the very smallest and youngest of the many creates itself and in so doing re-creates the All.  Like a fractal that you can eternally zoom into or out of in all directions.  Like a hologram of which the very smallest particle includes the whole image.

Z: That’s so beautiful!

J-D: I’m glad you like it.  It is my perspective and my truth.  There are many other perspectives.  There will be perspectives that do not at all agree with mine but that are equally valid.

Z: Uh.  Waitaminit.  How can your truth and someone else’s truth both be true and yet not agree?

J-D: Easily.  All truths are true and not two truths are identical.  But I can see how this might seem odd to you.  I will ask you to speak to our dear friend and soul-partner… and your spirit-guide… 8, on this subject.  You can call that chat “what is truth?”  But ask him about it okay?

Z: Okay.

J-D: So now.  If we can move along…  I will say to you that I am YOUR personal God-Self.  I hold within myself all the other versions of self that you are and will be.  You are my creation and… as explained… I am yours.  You are a part of a much, much greater Being and we together are intensely involved in the process of constant self creation.  From my perspective I will say that this is true for everyone on planet earth.

Z: I am an incarnation of you?

J-D: Yes, if you wish to see it like that.  Or you could also say I am experiencing my creation of you AS you.

Z: And how many of us are there incarnated on planet earth right now?

J-D: One.  Or have you not been paying attention?

Z: No, I mean how many incarnations of Joy-Divine are there on planet earth right now?

J-D: This is a far more complex question than you have intended it to be.  I will have to deal with it by saying that, from the perspective you are asking this there is only one human incarnation of Joy-Divine on planet earth in this space/time nexus that you exist in.  There is only you.  It is not congruent with our soul-purpose to have a great many incarnations as some of the other Bright Ones have had.  But that is also another story which we can come back to.

Z: Our soul purpose?

J-D: Yes.  We shall talk about that under the title “why am I called Joy-Divine”.

Z: Cool.  But now you have totally blown my mind with all this and I don’t know what else to ask.

J-D: (He laughs) That is good.  I think we should anyway end this session now so that you can rest your poor blown mind.  But you now already have the beginnings of a structure for where we are going to go from here.  You can pick it up next time with me when we address the topic “what is Oneness?”

Z: Awesome.  I just want to say: isn’t it weird that actually this process of channelling is really just me talking to myself?

J-D: Yes.  But if you understand it correctly then the whole universe is just one small side-conversation that God is having with Itself.  So… not so strange really.

Z: A SMALL SIDE CONVERSATION!  Isn’t the universe All That Is?

J-D: Hardly.  It looks pretty big to you, I’ll grant you, but it is just a small part of one reality construct.  There is an infinite amount of other such constructs.  And all the realities together make up just one way for God to express Itself.  There are an infinite number of others.

Z: Wowzer.  Now you really are blowing my mind.  I can see there is A LOT still to talk about.  Thank you so much for talking to me today.  I feel such love and gratitude.

J-D: Good feelings those.  I feel the same.  But, as the song goes, "you ain’t seen nothing yet!"  We’re still going to have lost of fun with this.  We’ll talk again soon.